Going Straight
An MM to MF Love Story—Based on a true story of loving men, marrying a woman, and the life that followed.
(Previously published as Fifty Shades of Grace by Nicholas J. Deere)

Not your typical “boy meets girl” story.
More like “boy meets boy, boy meets girl, boy meets God.”

Hale grew up on a typical American farm in the heart of the Great Midwest, but his path was anything but conventional. When his best friend in college invites him into a romantic relationship, Hale’s life takes an unexpected turn into a world he never imagined.

Going Straight is a candid memoir written in the style of a novel, exploring the glorious, unpredictable, and multi-faceted dimensions of love. From the vibrant energy of male romance to the profound, twenty-three-year bond of marriage—and an ultimate encounter with the Divine—Hale’s journey transcends labels.

Filled with passion, heartbreak, and the raw honesty of a life fully lived, this is a story for anyone who believes that love doesn’t always follow a straight line.

A note for readers

This is a literary LGBTQ+ love story based on true life experience, written as a novel under a pen name. It is not a genre romance and does not follow a traditional happily-ever-after structure. The story contains sensual and emotionally intimate moments but is not erotica.

Themes include gay and bisexual identity, faith, self-discovery, love and loss, and the lasting impact of deeply meaningful relationships.

Mature themes and sensual descriptions of intimacy.

What Readers Are Saying:

“A gripping story—a page turner for sure!”
“Truthful and compelling. I wanted to cry and hold him and tell him everything would be alright (and sometimes box his little ears!)”
“It hooks you immediately.”
“Engaging, interesting—and significant.”
“Excellent! Not overly graphic, but very personal.”
“A fascinating story—I think more than one wife will nudge her husband and say, ‘Here. Read this.’”
“I don’t think I could be so open and honest. That’s probably why it is so riveting.”
“A story all of us can relate to.”