Am I Gay?

Coming Out of Cultural Christianity & LGBTQ+ Identity Into Authentic Faith in Jesus

By: Garry Ingraham

Narrated by: Garry Ingraham

“In the American church, my fear is that many people have been inoculated to the gospel,” my pastor said. “They think they have the real thing, but they’re confusing a form of religion for authentic Christian faith.” Rev. John Hawco.

This is a perfect description of the kind of faith I had growing up in my Christian family and church. And I lived with a secret—many shameful secrets. Sexual abuse and early sexualization by peers led to porn addiction and chronic masturbation. To make matters worse, as a boy and young man growing up in a culture of Christian fundamentalism, my emotional and sexual attractions were toward other guys. I lived in the dominant shadow of a religious, rules-based Christianity, while desire for gay relationships and curiosity about LGBTQ+ culture grew intensely.

This is a story of a God who relentlessly pursues. This is a story that reveals what the church does not often do well regarding sexual sin or identity struggles. More importantly, it’s a story of how the church can be far better—equipped to live in love and truth through strength and compassion; inviting broken people into genuine and growing relationships with Jesus and His authentic community. The church can become a vibrant, well-prepared “teaching hospital” for all the issues and brokenness embraced today by hurting people craving belonging and purpose–love and meaning.

I once was broken and lost. I invite you to learn my story–how I found belonging, purpose, and meaning through the greatest and most enduring love of God.

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