Holy Disruptor

Shattering the Shiny Facade by Getting Louder with the Truth

By: Amy Duggar King

Narrated by: Amy Duggar King

Read by the author.

"Not only was I singled out and shamed, but I was lied to as well. I'm still trying to untangle the lies--some of them televised across the country--from the truth."

You've heard some of the story: the manipulation and abuse hidden behind the traditional Christian values that the Duggar family held up on TLC's hit reality show 19 Kids and Counting. As some of the scandal came to light, several of the Duggar children, including Jill and Jinger, have opened up about what it was like growing up in that environment.

But for the first time, Amy Duggar King--a close relative who spent almost every day with her 19 cousins and her aunt and uncle--brings the story into sharp relief, vulnerably sharing not only what life was like with the Duggars but how she, at the end of the day, had her own broken home to return to, a home that was hiding many other secrets.

Amy knows what it's like to be coerced and have her voice silenced. Her story reveals a world of unrealistic expectations and gaslighting in which a normal young woman had to untangle a web of carefully crafted lies while fighting to protect her own mental health. In that world, she was branded "Crazy Cousin Amy"--an identity she didn't choose but was forced to live into.

In Holy Disruptor, Amy gives her unfiltered testimony to finally break free from the toxic cycles that swirled around her and to confront the trauma she endured off-camera.

In the years since the Duggar family collapse, Amy has intentionally dissociated from the toxic family environment, which has helped her learn how to be a "holy disruptor" and make life-changing decisions for her well-being. This is a story about how she discovered that disrupting such deception is a holy act that brings freedom and joy . . . and it applies to you too. No matter what you've been told or how you've been manipulated in the past, freedom is waiting for you.

It's time to use your voice and get loud with the truth.

Things make more sense now

I watched most, if not all, of the Duggars tv series, and I’ve read a couple of the books the girls have published in recent years. For many years, I have had so many questions. As a psychology major and from a Christian worldview, I knew things were not okay in the family. Jim Bob & Michelle, may have had good intentions in the way they wanted to raise their children, but goodness I’ve cringed often at the decisions they made. The details in this book have confirmed the suspicions I’ve had for years. Thank you for sharing your painful journey in your own family and extended family, Amy! I believe it will help people find healing in their own lives. Wishing you continued healing and peace in your life, Amy!

Wow- what a story of courage and freedom!

I am so thankful you were brave enough to share your story with us. Truly, we are crying with you and also rejoicing with you. Wish I could give you a big hug. Wish I could’ve given younger you an even bigger one. You are truly amazing! To God be the glory!

Amazingly written.

such a strong and powerful testimony! May God continue to bless you and your family .

Open and Truthful

She seemed really genuine. It was not written with malicious intent based on her keeping some names private of family happenings. She definitely deserved to be heard after being made out to be “crazy”.

My healing Process

I am a survivor of sexual abuse. listening to Amy's story made me feel more encouraged to share with those who have been abused to use their voice. Women have a voice the need to feel empowered to used that voice and people need to be encouraged to listen to those words.