LOSING THE COMPASS... the pathetic journey on pathless paths

abstract motivation / spiritual & philosophical essays related to duality

By: Adrian Gabriel Dumitru

Narrated by: Virtual Voice

I meditate.
I think a lot.
I've became addicted to it.
It's sort of an obsession.
... looking also as an addiction.
I study the concept of illusory, but no matter what i always end up into the illusion.
Feeling without a compass.
Not ... just lost.
... but extremely lost.
Of course ... all was induced of the fact that ... i had realised that no matter what direction i might follow ... all was the opposite of what i've wanted ... and actually a pathless path.
So ... yeah ... i am the profile experiencing life as a disappointment ... but paradoxically still suffering of this incurable disease called optimism ... i continue hoping.
Hoping of a better tomorrow.
... one that never comes.
Meanwhile ... i express all those thoughts, emotions and feelings from inside of me... writing and writing.
Trying to analyse and define this weird dynamic ... still expecting that i might find a solution to redefine the scenario of this damn life ... but unfortunately still living in hell.
In despair.
A non ending torture.
A nonsense.