On Her Knees

Memoir of a Prayerful Jezebel

By: Brenda Marie Davies

Narrated by: Brenda Marie Davies

"The problem was, because purity is an idol (a validated and worshiped idol), I didn’t know who or what I’d be without my totem. My Christianity depended on purity.”

Going to a conservative Christian church when she was young, Brenda Marie Davies heard a consistent message - save yourself for marriage - that instilled in her fear and shame about sex. But after moving to Los Angeles at 19 and finding herself suddenly exposed to a world far outside her comfort zone, she was forced to wrestle with the power and perversity of Christian purity culture.

On Her Knees chronicles Brenda’s spiritual journey over the course of a decade in LA through marriage, divorce, unlikely friendship, and sexual exploration. Through it all, she began tearing down the false idol of purity while refusing to abandon her faith. Told with raw honesty, sans obligatory shame, this is a story for anyone who wonders if it’s possible to love God without fearing sex, in all its shades of grey.

©2021 Wm. B. Eerdmans Publishing Co. (P)2021 Wm. B. Eerdmans Publishing Co.

Vulnerable, Raw, & Captivating

Brenda does an amazing job at telling her story about the ups and downs of her spiritual journey. Her story certainly commands your attention and ends on an encouraging note.

I didn’t know how much I needed this!

This book was so open and honest! I didn’t know that I needed to hear this message as much as I did. I l connected in so many ways to the message- I could literally feel it.

Made me feel like I'm not alone.

Brenda is vulnerable and honest in a way that is so refreshing and relatable. She said so many things out loud that I was afraid to admit I was even thinking. This book is a great expression of why love and relationships and faith is about more than checking boxes or following rules.

A real perspective of the damage purity culture can cause

I love this book. Brenda is a natural storyteller. I’ve been an atheist for as long as I can remember, but I still enjoy hearing other people’s perspectives. Even though I wasn’t raised with religious purity messages, I definitely noticed some of the secular messages that are similar. This book makes me wonder just how many people have had similar experiences and all because of “purity.”

Thank you Brenda!

Absolutely amazing. Just finished this book and I am speechless. All I can say is that you must read it for yourself!