Ascension Spiral

freeing myself from the contracted reality that says

I just have trauma. We can work on that level, tend to it kindly,

we must, but even the heart and dakini bliss opening,

and inner sanctum of mind flooded with light,

can be experienced as suffering when we abide in samsara

The higher we go on the ascension spiral, the deeper we must travel into the underworld to balance the energies.

I do this, and I find him here, we have done this before

We have descended together, and we have risen up

through the pillar of light in my body and his,

into the heavens together before the altar of the holy of holies,

he does not want to make it real on the relative,

but that does not erase my remembering, my recognition,

I let him go, and I grieve, Everything else seems bland and uninteresting

I pray to find the color and sparkle of my own aliveness

without the taste of him. I am, I feel, I need,

I want, I speak, I move, I show myself in safety.

he spoke of the Nature of Mind.