Many spiritual paths don’t begin with awakening.

They begin much earlier, often in childhood, before we have the language to understand what we’re experiencing.

In this episode of Spirit and Scrutiny, Flower shares a deeply personal part of her story: growing up as a highly sensitive child, feeling connected to the unseen world, and the moments when that connection was questioned or silenced.

She reflects on communicating with her grandfather after his passing, the skepticism she was raised with, and the life experiences that eventually led her back to herself through the body, breath, and spiritual practice.

This conversation explores the idea that sometimes the path we think we’re discovering later in life… is actually the one that has been quietly walking beside us all along.

This episode also includes a gentle breath moment and a reflection question for listeners.

In this episode of Spirit and Scrutiny, Flower explores the role of discernment in spirituality and the moment when something we once trusted begins to feel slightly misaligned.

Sharing a personal experience of working with a spiritual teacher, this conversation looks at the concept of spiritual bypassing — when spiritual language is used to rise above or avoid real human emotions. Flower reflects on how questioning, curiosity, and honest self-inquiry can become powerful tools for spiritual maturity.

Rather than rejecting spirituality, this episode invites listeners to bring both spirit and scrutiny into the same room.

The conversation closes with a brief breathwork moment and a reflection question for the week.

After sitting with the call to start this podcast for years, today I finally pressed record.

This first episode begins in the most honest place possible — not with a polished plan, but with a quiet nudge that kept returning until I listened.

In this opening conversation, I talk about the moment when something that has lived in your awareness for a long time finally becomes real. The space where intuition meets hesitation, where the call toward something deeper keeps returning, and where we eventually reach the crossroads between knowing… and beginning.

Spirit & Scrutiny is a space for exploring spirituality with both openness and discernment. Here we’ll talk about intuition, energy work, awakening, and the unseen aspects of life, while also staying grounded in honesty and critical awareness.

If you’ve ever felt a persistent call toward something in your life, this episode is for you.

And this is only the beginning.

New episodes explore spirituality, discernment, intuitive awareness, and the lived human experience of walking a spiritual path.