The past 72 hours on the farm have been a complete whirlwind. In this episode, we share the full story of the birth of our very first calf, Patty. What started as excitement quickly turned into a rollercoaster of stress, adrenaline, learning, and a lot of emotion.

From watching the early signs of labor, to witnessing the moment Patty was born, to the panic when she wouldn’t latch and drink her first colostrum, this experience pushed our nervous systems to the limit. As new farmers, we had to figure things out in real time, lean on experienced neighbors, and trust both nature and our instincts.

We talk about the challenges of intervening when necessary, the lessons in surrender and humility that farming constantly teaches, and the powerful moment when we finally saw Patty nursing on her own.

This episode is a raw look at farm life, birth, life, death, stress, and the deep beauty of witnessing nature do its thing.

You’ll also get to meet Patty, Mabel, and the rest of the animals as we take the podcast out to the barn.

Welcome to farm life. It’s messy, emotional, exhausting, and absolutely magical.

In this episode of the Black Sheep Podcast, I’m joined by Ajax and Brad for an unfiltered, long-form conversation about homelessness, addiction, government spending, and the systems that claim to help but often miss the mark.

We break down the numbers behind California’s multi-billion-dollar homelessness budget and compare it to what’s happening here in Canada, especially in Ontario. The conversation dives into the idea of the “homeless industrial complex,” where funding, nonprofits, and policy collide, and we ask the uncomfortable question, where does the money actually go?

Brad shares his personal journey through separation, job loss, homelessness, addiction, and rehab, giving a first-hand look at how fast life can unravel and what it really takes to climb back out. We talk about safe injection sites, treatment vs. enablement, mental health, housing, and the difference between short-term survival and long-term recovery.

This episode is part data, part lived experience, and part raw debate. No scripts, no filters, just real conversations about broken systems, personal responsibility, and what meaningful solutions could actually look like.

If you’ve ever wondered why the problem keeps growing despite the funding, this is the episode.

In this episode of the BlackSheep Podcast we dive headfirst into one of the most uncomfortable and misunderstood conversations of our time, pornography, intimacy, conditioning, and what it’s actually doing to our relationships and our nervous systems.

I open up about growing up in the era where porn shifted from hidden magazines to instant, unlimited access online, and how that evolution quietly shaped how we think about sex, connection, performance, and even our own self-worth. We talk about the history, the psychology, the normalization, and the programming behind it, but more importantly how it shows up in real couples sitting across from us today in counseling.

This conversation is not about shame, it’s about awareness. We unpack why so many people struggle with intimacy, why arousal patterns get rewired, how porn becomes a form of self-soothing, and how resentment and disconnection are built when we don’t understand the root of what’s actually happening.

We also explore the deeper questions, what real union looks like, how vulnerability and communication get replaced by performance, and why so many relationships fall apart over something no one knows how to talk about honestly.

And we don’t just leave it there. We finish with practical ways to begin deprogramming, rebuilding connection, and relearning intimacy from a place of presence instead of conditioning.

This one is raw, uncomfortable, and necessary.

If you’ve ever wondered why modern relationships feel disconnected, this episode is for you.

📍 Topics we cover• The evolution of porn from taboo to mainstream• Conditioning, dopamine, and escalation• Erectile dysfunction, performance anxiety, and intimacy issues• Porn as self-regulation and coping• The loss of true connection in modern sex• Shame loops and secrecy• How to start deprogramming and rebuilding real intimacy