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Imagine being a mother separated from her infant by an oppressive group like the Sullivanians with cult-like control. In this episode hear Annie's heartbreaking journey to rescue her daughter Rosie from the Sullivanians. With the crucial help of a women's shelter's dedicated legal advocates, I helped Annie orchestrate a daring escape and go into hiding. There is urgency and tension in every step of her plan to reclaim her daughter.

Listen to the emotional turbulence that eventually culminates in the courtroom battle for custody that exposes the spurious workings of the Sullivanians, threatening their existence. The episode also sheds light on the broader experiences of former members of the Sullivan Institute, including the emotional and social challenges they faced. Through gripping accounts from individuals like Ben and Karen, who risked everything for their freedom, and the eventual downfall of the group under Saul Newton's erratic rule, this is a poignant exploration of life within a cult.

When joining a cult you are unaware of the full level of commitment you are about to make, or the extent to which your autonomy is about to be curtailed. I hope that by sharing my personal story and shedding light on the Sullivanians, I've helped to explain why people are attracted to cults in the first place. In Annie's case, some are born into them, for some, it is the promise of a community or to better themselves, or the promise of sexual availability, but it is usually during a time of vulnerability in a person's life.

This is the final chapter. My name is Shelley Feinerman. I hope you have found the podcast of interest and I thank you for listening. I went on to have a successful career, married, and have an amazing son. My artwork can be seen on Instagram. @ThroughaBlueWindow

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What if you found yourself trapped within a group that controlled every aspect of your life, from your relationships to how you spent your money? This episode unveils some of the dark realities inside the Sullivanians, the infamous cult that hid in plain sight on Manhattan's Upper West Side, in the years after Cora left. Learn about the group's manipulative tactics, inspired by the theories of Harry Stack Sullivan, which forced members into rigid and often detrimental lifestyles. These oppressive dynamics strained family bonds, induced severe anxiety, and left members grappling with emotional and financial turmoil.

After 10 years Annie Steinman re-enters Cora's life. You will hear her how the Institute's brutal regime upended her life. With the absence of June Geddes, Saul's unyielding control became even more suffocating as the women of the group became mothers as Annie did.. Annie shares the protocols of pregnancy and the devastating loss of her daughter, Rosie, to the Institute's grip. Her story is a stark reminder of the profound personal costs of such manipulative environments. This episode is an eye-opening account of the search for autonomy and the enduring impact of living under such a repressive system. And in two weeks listen for the climatic episode "Escape from Nirvana."

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After being forced out of the apartment by Annie I was more convinced than ever that that I could no longer tow the party line.

In this episode and the next I will take a deeper dive into my relationship with Chris Crenshaw, first mentioned in episode four which covered Jonestown's and my realization the group was a cult and the group’s exodus to Florida after The Three Mile Island accident and partial nuclear meltdown ( it might be worth a re-listen) and the Open Union, an independent socialist, activist, and education center where we met.

The threads of love, and loss, were woven into the unyielding force of the Sullivanian's influence on me. Ollie briefly reenters my life and brings a flood of emotion and memories. We share a vulnerable conversation that navigates our shared history, the weight of regret, and love. As Ollie prepares to leave New York City, we grasp one more night together, and the promise of staying connected. This episode is more than a narrative; it's a testament to the resilience of the human heart and the profound impact of our choices—intertwined with the relentless pursuit of personal freedom and political conviction becoming a catalyst for leaving the group and therapy

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