Orgsm: A Memoir

Inside the Matriarchal Cult of OneTaste

By: Ruwan Meepagala

Narrated by: Ruwan Meepagala

An insider's true story of the "Orgasm cult.”

At twenty-four, he was broke, anxious, and sexually dysfunctional. A postcard advertising a "Meetup on Female Orgasm" seemed absurd. He went anyway. What he found changed everything.

Within months, he transformed from socially awkward to confident "stroker" living in an orgasm commune in Manhattan. The women were radiant and sexually empowered. The men possessed an almost supernatural ability to "feel" what others wanted. Every conversation was vulnerable. Every moment alive with sensation. It felt like he'd found the cheat codes to human connection.

But there was a price he couldn't see yet.

This raw, untold memoir reveals the real story not covered in Netflix's Orgasm Inc.

The story shows how intelligent people get trapped in high-control groups. How the same methods used to help people can be weaponized to control them. How trauma and transformation can be impossible to separate.

Listen and You'll Learn:

• Sophisticated manipulation techniques used by modern high-control groups — explained from the inside
• The neuroscience and psychology behind charismatic influence, trauma bonding, and groupthink
• Philosophical questions about free will when your desires have been carefully cultivated
• The full arc from FBI investigation through the 2025 criminal conviction with firsthand testimony
• Difficult truths about healing and harm coexisting in the same experience
• Little-known details about power dynamics in matriarchal organizations

Perfect For Listeners Who Loved:

• Educated by Tara Westover
• The Game by Neil Strauss
• Cultish by Amanda Montell
• Wild Wild Country
• Going Clear by Lawrence Wright

Publisher's Note: This is the limited pre-sentencing edition.

Ruwan Meepagala began writing this memoir in 2014, immediately after leaving OneTaste. It has taken over ten years to complete - partly due to legal threats and intimidation, partly due to the complexity of processing an experience where the worst and best years of his life were the same years.

This version covers events through the May 2025 federal trial where Nicole Daedone and Rachel Cherwitz were convicted of forced labor and conspiracy. It will be updated with final sentencing details when available.

©2025 Ruwan Meepagala (P)2025 Ruwan Meepagala

Perspective of a Sex cult

Ruwan makes you feel like your there on his journey through one tase the feelings, relationships of each stage of joining a sex cult. You get the inside scoop from his perspective, you feel what the characters are feeling and see the progression as Ruwan gets deeper into onetaste. His skills evolve and you just see how unfair and messed up things get. Great read!!

This is incredibly well written and interesting

So I couldn't stop listening to this book. I do know the people involved at least some of them and I've been so curious what happened exactly to make people so upset. I really appreciated the story and all the details and just felt like this was really an impressive piece of Truth telling/ storytelling and what an experience to have. I'm really grateful that he told his story. And my story was different as far as being involved with Nicole. however, I feel like this was an important story for him to tell. He's a beautiful writer and he does a fabulous job. narrating. It was recommended to me by a friend and then I recommended it to a friend and I think that will continue to happen!

If 48 laws of power and influence had a baby

An honest peak behind the curtains of this reality and a masterclass in what gives people this kind of power. For the first half of the book I wanted to join one taste to soak up the obvious benefits of this practice knowing you could play the meta game and come out unscathed. But then something pulled me in and I had to finish the last half of the book in one day to rip off the band aid of triggering emotions. I feel like I need time to process what I just read.

I like that Ruwan has the strength to still highlight all the positives of such a deep practice without just getting bitter by the emotional abuse and injustice that came from the corrupt power games played. It leaves me with more questions that I hope he addresses in his next book!

A Cautionary Tale

This is a cautionary tale by a hero that didn’t quite make it all the way through the journey. He had some fun experiences, but he missed the real adventure all together, the Love. It reads like someone throwing their ex-girlfriend under the bus, for all of us to be sad for him and weary of our own adventures and choices. At the end, I can hear his regret even as he writes it. I feel sad for him, but not because of all those evil women, because he had an opportunity for something so much better than most people even get a glimpse of, but he couldn’t have it. That will be a tough pill to swallow for the rest of his life.