1 Samuel 2:36 shows what happens after everything changes.

What once had power… doesn’t anymore.

I’m sitting here just days before my lease ends with no clear plan, and the old version of me would have been spiraling, forcing something, creating chaos just to feel safe.

But this time is different.

I’m doing what’s in front of me, letting the rest be unknown, and trusting that I don’t have to control everything to be okay.

This isn’t about having it all figured out. It’s about realizing that the patterns that used to run my life no longer have authority over me.

1 Samuel 2:35 talks about God raising up something faithful to replace what couldn’t continue.

For me, that’s meant learning something I’ve avoided my whole life—patience.

With my lease ending, no clear plan yet, and everything in my life requiring me to wait, I’m being forced to stop controlling and start trusting.

I’ve done what I can—packing, selling, interviewing. And now… I wait.

This isn’t peaceful. It’s uncomfortable, frustrating, and completely out of my control.

But maybe this is what it actually looks like to live according to God’s heart and mind—doing your part and letting go of the rest.

1 Samuel 2:35 talks about God raising up something faithful to replace what could no longer continue.

For years my life was run by survival patterns—control, anxiety, trying to fix everything and everyone. But recently I realized something had changed.

With my lease ending and no clear plan yet, the old me would have been spiraling. Instead, I’m doing the only things I can do right now—packing boxes, sending resumes, and trusting God with the rest.

Sometimes faith isn’t about controlling the outcome. Sometimes it’s about doing what’s right in front of you and letting God handle what you can’t see yet.

Sometimes the patterns that helped us survive eventually have to be released.

In this episode, I talk about the difficult part of healing: honoring the survival patterns that once protected us while learning to let them go. Those patterns got us here, but they can’t run the new system God is building in our lives.

Healing isn’t about rejecting who you were. It’s about understanding why those patterns existed, grieving them, and allowing something healthier to take their place.

1 Samuel 2:34

Imagine riding your donkey to deliver a message from God… and realizing you have to tell a priest that both of his sons will die on the same day.

In 1 Samuel 2:34, the unnamed man (aka Bob) delivers one of the most intense parts of the message to Eli. But this verse is about more than judgment — it’s about what happens when warnings are ignored and corruption can’t continue.

In this episode we talk about patterns, warnings we miss in our own lives, and how sometimes things have to end before something healthier can begin.

In 1 Samuel 2:32–33, an unnamed man is sent by God to deliver a message to Eli. I’ve been calling him “Bob,” and the more I reflect on this story, the more I realize something: sometimes God asks us to be Bob.

Not every message from God is dramatic or frightening. Sometimes it’s a simple reminder that someone is loved, worthy, and not alone. In this episode I share a conversation with a friend who believed she didn’t deserve God’s love—and how, in that moment, God used me as the unnamed messenger to remind her that God never stopped loving her.

What if God is asking you to be someone’s Bob today?

In 1 Samuel 2:32–33, an unnamed man delivers a message from God. I’ve been calling him Bob, and the more I sit with this story, the more I realize something: sometimes we’re all Bob.

Not every message from God is dramatic or heavy. Sometimes it’s as simple as showing kindness, offering encouragement, or being present for someone who needs it. In this episode I share the story of how obedience led me to unexpected encounters with people like David, Ethan, and Stephanie—and how God can use ordinary moments to deliver extraordinary love.

The question is simple: Who might need you to be their Bob today?

Imagine you’re sitting at home with your clay cup, minding your business, and God says, “Hey… I need you to deliver some devastating news to the high priest.”

That’s where we find the unnamed man in 1 Samuel 2:33 — or as I call him, Bob. In this episode, I talk about what it means to say yes when God calls you to do something uncomfortable, intimidating, or just plain terrifying. From donkey rides to distractions to obedience in my own life, this is about trusting God even when the message (or the mission) feels bigger than you